Posts Written OnSeptember 2019

After starting the Carboplatin and Taxotere regimen in early June of 2017, I went into some kind of dissociative psychological state, as if I were in a dream. I had recently started to take generous amounts of pain medication on a daily basis– as well as cannabis oil– and was on autopilot when it came to emotionally dealing with my increasingly alarming health situation and uncertain prognosis. I was overloaded. I checked out, and shut down. My memories of the ensuing eight weeks remain sketchy and scattered at best, but pieces remain. I began to spend much more time at my brother Joe’s house. Joe and his partner Paul lived on Hollywood Boulevard, just north of the Comedy Store club on Sunset Boulevard. I would spend a couple of days at Joe’s,…